Frozen Fanatsie..

Hmm u know the old cliche where people think and reminisce about the past… yeah. i’m having it now… MAybe i’m just feeling malancholy.. but oh well, the past seem so fun.. seems so much more happy.. those sec4 days… whoa.. love it..

“Life makes so much sense when it is played backwards..” but i guess…

there’s so many problems.. so many questions to life.. It ranges from the sophisticated question of evolution, of purpose of life or the question of what is happiness.. till the simplest of questions of will I wake up tomorrow.. The future is a big question mark. It is something that we humans try hard to grasp.. but is also something we never will. Humans try so hard to predict the future, try to alter it.. try to vindicate the world from its misery.. but it has all come to naught. Many tried to phantom the question of our existence, but we humans could never understand it.

How depressing.. how weak.. we humans are.. and i guess like how King Solomon puts it.. 

Ecc 12:13 (NIV)
Now all has been heard;
here is the conclusion of the matter: 
 Fear God and keep his commandments, 
for this is the whole duty of man.

What can I do… Nothing I guess… but to obey and do what God asked me to.. Well, it is true that he holds the ans to all life’s question.. but well, its just so so hard.. to do my duty…

Hi pete

Bah.. Waiting for pete the snail at pp macs. Was watching the Truman show at his house. A weird show with an interesting concept. Bahhh he’s here alright. Pete you might be seeing this when u reach home. This was the mysterious thing I was doing at
Macs

Swim swim swim.

Whoa. I’ve been walking a lot this week!

I’m now at beach road. With matt. We were swimming this morning. Been awhile since I got into the pool and realized how week I am in water. All right he’s back from buying some tang yuan.

God = Love

I finally understood this concept. God is love. It is only through God and in God then we can find true love. Cool!

Adventure

Alright. So I’m currently waiting for my bus at yck. Just had a wonderful adventure with shawn walking from church to novena. And from novena to some dark street in upper Thompson for an hour before heading for prata. And bussing here. Was an interesting walk.. Saw some nice houses, weird bird and some bridges and walk way in the dark forest. Oh guess what, we saw the construction sites of the circle line in there too. Oh well that’s that. Hope I can catch my last bus home.

Oh! And I’m gona watch heroes when I get home!! U know.. Prepare my heart for camp.

WTH am I doing on earth..

Finally, I decided to buy purpose drive live.. picked it up and read the first chapter and it totally blew me away..

So what is my purpose? And the first thing the book taught me was <Your purpose is not for yourself>. Ah.. This hit the nail right in the head.. I think, for me.. many times i have “planned life” for my best. And not God’s plan. As the book says, there’s a difference between success and achieving our purpose. And often I’m deluded and distracted by my own dreams. Sooooo… i guess i need to remember this..

Chill…Chil….

Chillax Joseph.. Chillax.. you are going too fast…

Post A-levels

Ahhhh finally I decided to blog!

Many thoughts.. during and after Alvls.. This two years has been. Well, great. Filled with ups and down. As i lie down on my bed after my Alvls, can’t help but to recall of all my setbacks and learnings. In ministry, how i see my sheep leaving, how I screwed up the many celebrations, how i struggle in decisions, how i learn to lead and how to be a better shepherd. Well, all these are really hard lessons and sad lessons.. As a person, I learnt how to pesevere, how to plan my time properly and well, to procrastinate less.. How I learnt to love God, to love people more.. how to prioritise.. to do what i had to do instead of what i felt like doing.. How i grew in my thinking, perspective.. learning to pass judgment as well..

Looks like this two years have really been tough. Could still remember how I was freating over the gay time table in my first 3 months of JC life.. Holiday lessons.. Fearing that i would be late for school and get detention that would deprive me of going to service.. How I was afraid of ponning lame talks.. How i wanted to join track, which i didn’t and i’m happy so.. How i scrape through promos by studying 2 essay outlines for each paper.. How i refuse to do my maths tutorial.. How I sat in the exam hall during block test 3 in J2 not knowing how to do anything.. writting half a page and a page for history essays… Sleeping lectures.. fearing Aminah’s wrath.. yes.. aminah’s wrath.. How we ran to her class!! haah.. How Team Joseph got through PW..

The Alevels period is definetly another milestone of growth. How studying for it seem so impossible.. JUst to cover the topics.. How i get stressed up over my lack of knowledge over the subjects.. How I don’t feeeeeeel like picking up my pen, opening up my books to study even the day before my paper.. How i struggle to do my A’levels itself.. How unexpected topics came up.. how i emo and roll all over the bed refusing to study..

Ahhh i guess you get the picture.. JC life is really really tough.. there’s something up every other day.. didn’t really have much breathing space for the past 2 years.. Especially if you are leading people.. and well just glad its over.. Learnt much loss much.. and it has DEFINETLY been an interesting journey with God..

So all that has been said.. Just happy that i made it through this chapter of my life.. and i believe the next one would be even better.. Though i really hope that i can go into the course i WANT to go.. but juts pray that i will accept waht God has installed.. be it good or bad la.. and i will stand firm in whatever results i get.. oh well so thats that… YAY A’s are over!! 5 months break……….

Omg omg omg omg~

WKWSCI – broadcast and cinema studies – SCRIPTWRITTING

Omg omg omg omg omg~

That means. I can’t settle for less. Omg..