It is You that satisfy

It is your love,
It is your goodness.
It is your kindness and compassion,
That fills me up inside

It is your grace,
Your gentle mercy.
It is your presence in my life
that satisfy.

Refreshed!

 Alright! Back from my 4D3N cruise.. Took awhile for me to upoload the photos and to make the collage though..

So, yeah.. This trip was a very refreshing trip. Had a great time just lying on the highest deck.. Gazing upon the stars.. Contemplating..
Cruising was pretty nice. Got much room to just.. chill.. Things move really slowly.. No need to rush.. No need to care much.. (and i get to pon CPM, Service, CLM! Okay, I’m a little disappointed *spiritual*) Anyway, it was really enjoyable! I must say!

The interior of the cruise was pretty nice and glam. The stateroom was a little weird. Had the costrophobic feel. There’s no window. And thus, if i off all the lights and close the door, there will be complete darkness even when there’s no sun. But the bed and the blanket was very comfy! They have this nice swimming pool and a whirlpool. The swimming pool is sea water. Nice and cooling. And the whirlpool is warm. Had a nice dip on the second night.. They have a library, many lounge, majiong room, casino, club, pub.. So there’s much activity.. Oh and they have this pizza and burger bar which we can just go and get free burger.. Hot dog buns.. Pizza and fries..

Now.. about food.. Can’t really say if it is nice or not.. Egg and potato and milk have been my best friend on this trip.. Ate them almost every meal. And cakes and cookies have been new companions. I “had to” go and try the corn pancake with sour cream during some dinner.. which totally sucked.. and Pasta is so not my thing..

So this trip was nicely accompanied by my family and a few of my extend family members. Though many nights were spend alone emo-ing, did had some time to get to know them better..

 Yeah yeah.. Narccissist.. Whatever…
But one thing that i really brought home this trip was the strightening of some thoughts which, i guess, i really needed. Life in Singapore is kinda stressful.. with so many ministry happenings and no time to just halt and listen.. This break was certainly meaningful and refreshing.. and well.. humbling =)

Feeling.. Weird.. Haha

Wth. I can’t believe I just stayed up to read a romance novel. Hmm I guess I should not condemn romance novel addicts anymore.

Its all about >>ME!<<

This is definitely a less than narcissist post.. But more of a humble post.

Oh well, 2 days have past since I started my quest to grow.. It hasn’t been much easy or close to it. Been quite a painful experience even for two days. Even so, thank God i got to learn much. Realising and seeing many character flaws.

You know(i don’t know).. I’ve always wondered why arn’t I out there.. Doing all the ’big’ things.. Fulfilling my ‘greater’ purpose.. Realising my dreams.. Instead, I’m all stucked here.. going through this mind numbing 2yrs of JC education which drained much of my life.. Needing to go through army(how should i describe this?).. How boring is this! Furthermore, things arn’t exactly… great.. You know.. With much failures..

And so I always complained to God! “Awww.. Why am I here.. So you decided to place me here.. Then why arn’t things.. well, growing.. or advancing.. this is such a waste of time!”

Then I realised, I am already in His ’Greater purpose’.. That is to grow, ultimately, in my CHARACTER. I think character is a greatly undervalued thing in this world. Things like integrity, humility, passion.. And ultimately, God’s plan for us is not to lead more people, or to do more stuff.. it is to grow in this thing called CHARACTER.. through Peseverence.. and in Hope!

A perfect verse summing all this up would be this..

Psalm 105:19 (NLT)
 Until the time came to fulfill his dreams,
      the Lord tested Joseph’s character.

Amen..

With everything..

So I wait upon you now,
With my hands released to you,
Where a little faiths enough,
To see mountains lift and move,
Yeah and I wait upon you now,
Dedicated to your will,
To this love that will remain,
A love that never fails
- second chance (hillsongs)

I’m dead serious. Though I’m not as convicted or really faithfilled, but I throw in all my chips. I Show hand! I really want to see something happen. And with everything I have, with every faith and every effort, I dedicate my life to this cause.

A timely message came in from God as I was inspired to read phillipians today. So I was finally reminded and better understand what did peter throng said about me running away and stuff. I need to learn and be like Paul! Know that as I am in ‘prison’, I still need to dedicate my life to God. And of course, it is God’s will for me to be in ‘prison’ Amen!

Gotta thank God for Canice also.. for well.. double dare me… Come on CANICE! lets do this together!

The Heart of Worship

When all is stripped away. As every mask is removed. As every title, responsibilities, trophies, reputation, cliche statments. How would you look like. How much of a ‘nice guy’ would you be. When you are being stretched to the max, when you are tired and frustrated. How much patience would you show.

When all is stripped away. Your true character would stand out. Your character is who you really are. And at the bottom line, it is how christ-like u have became over the years and not your position.

Joseph joseph.. you are not yet ready for My plans.. grow in your character first.. and then we will talk… amen…

A sabbath?

Bye guys. Would be away for awhile. On for an overdued holiday. Back on tue. And so, I finally get to pon service! In your face Shawn!!

The best Morning

Hey world! It’s the end of holidays and a sad monday morning at a start of new school term. But guess what?! I don’t have school! And I’m going back to my comfy bed to sleep.

Conviction

I need to be die hard for God

Welcome 2009

All I need is you