No weeping, no fear or pain, no hiding…

I was reminded once again, that we don’t reach out to bring people to church so that we have more people to bring more people. No! We bring people to church, not to use them as a resource. We bring them to church to bring them to a God who cares for them as who they are. We bring them to church to bring them to a community that would love them.

This is what the church exist for! Never dillute it!

6 words to sum it up: It was very very very tiring

Sad to say that.. but undeniably, it was. Didn’t really had those moments where i had revelations, or was super touched. I guess God didn’t speak to me as much. Well, or perhaps i wasn’t listening.. but i doubt so..

But nevertheless, i would dare to say that this camp reminded me of a lot of stuff.

I was reminded to have Joy! Yes, somehow I have lost the Joy serving God. Perhaps it was a result of always finding perfection, or in other words, too busy in trying to make things better.

I was also reminded about evangelism and really serving the under served. The Core of Christianity.

The highlight for this camp would probably be being in-charged of technical support. The pack up, the setting up and then pack up again. IT WAS GAY. And i salute those who have did it before.. Hui Ying, Aloy.. As tiring as it was, I’m glad to have been entrusted with it. Really. It was a chance for me to grow and learn and do more.. and i’m really proud to know that i’ve contributed..

the 2nd highlight, would have been the little conversation i and Matthias had sitting by the volley ball court watching the unit play.. It was really.. refreshing..

I shall end of exclaiming that I belief that Life Group is the place that LIVES are gonna go through transformation through fervent LOVE! And out of Life Group, there will come WORLD CHANGERS! I BELIEF IT!

#1 this year’s course has been diff from my new year resolution
#2 i have been rediscovering my discoveries

dear Lord, would you fill my heart with your Love.

as I finally lie down on my bed for a breather.. i realised that i’m actually very tired..

i have been giving from a dry well..

Lord, let it rain…

I have created you. and gave a heart that longs for me. Unless you seek me, and dwell in me. You would never be fulfilled.

But even as so, this heart i gave you blesses you. Because ultimately you will know that i am the one that is the most important. I am the one that you should please.

If this was your last they on earth.. What would you do?
(what a cliche question.. but this is of great value)

If what you are doing today.. isn’t what you would do if this is your last day on earth..  and if it is something that you are not enjoying.. then why continue doing it. (but, yeah.. don’t take it to the extreme)

I think we ought to enjoy life more. Perhaps not in a way that we just play  (playing game is somewhat draining to me) our life away.. but maybe.. to take time off to do something we enjoy.. just for the love of it..
or perhaps we need to learn to enjoy life as it self..

So what is something that you have always wanted to do.. and haven’t been doing because you are too busy? perhaps.. you could try having some fun..

heh.. been trying to explore writing poem. and yes. It definitely served me well, helping me express myself better..

I realised, my friend (20 oct ‘09)

Hello, Goodbye. The days went by.
I never realised
A part of me; a shadow behind.
I never realised
The Good that completes my good ole days.
I never realised
My smile tonight.
I realised

That though you don’t know me
and can not be by my side always.
You are my friend, my gem, my joy.
I realised.

off with the facade, off with your everything (24 oct ‘09)

Oh, what youthful Pride!
Oh, what eagerness to prove himself
Knowledge, wisdom adn even morals
He tried to show that he was someone special

Oh, what insecurity!
Oh, what lust for glory!
Seemingly righteous and even true
He kept a covetous heart for the talented

Oh, what broken soul!
Oh, what a disheartened!
Till he bring a humble heart
Till he come home naked
He shall neither know life nor joy

why so downcast, o my soul..
why so disturbed within me..

who would understand…
i don’t even understand..

i think i’m crazy

tut..tut..tut..
the motor of the boat died again..

Sam looked back at it as he withdraws his fishing rod.

“Man! How many times does this stupid motor have to die on me.” sam thought to himself

He made his way slowly to the engine box at the tail of his small boat. He didn’t feel like starting the motor once again.

“whats the point? its gona die again anyway..”

Sam had been long out at sea. Faithfully casting his rod, hoping for a great harvest. Well, its not that he hasn’t caught any fish, in fact, he has caught quite a few.. but his catch wasn’t satisfying.. He questioned himself, asking if he wasn’t contented.. but it doesn’t seem to be quite a satisfactory answer for him.. And most importantly, this fishing business has worn him out..

As the sun retreats back into the shadows, casting a beautiful and soft pastel colour in the sky.. Sam wondered was it time to head back home.. He was tired..

Sam looks at the engine box.. and gave a loud sigh.. He wasn’t sure what is his motivation.. he pulls and pulls and pulls… the motor coughed…the propeller started rotating… and he continues on; on his lonesome journey..